Last October was the first time I hit the 290s. I knew I had to do something, but I was so overwhelmed to be so close to 300 lbs. I was embarrassed that I let myself go that much, but I had no motivation to do anything about it. I remember thinking that there was no way I could start in October, since the holidays were just around the corner. Then, the new year showed up. I knew it was so typical to have a weight loss resolution, but my motivation was back. I was wearing size 26 jeans and had some 3x tops. I was headed towards the max size that most plus size stores go, and I just couldn’t live like that anymore. I weighed 298.5 lbs. on day 1.
It’s been a long 10 months, and while my weight loss isn’t as fast as others, I’m still proud of myself. I’ve lost 50 lbs. Sometimes, I look at the scale in disbelief, because I was so used to the 290s. I feel like someday the scale is going to tell me that it’s been lying all along, and this is all a dream. I know that won’t happen, but coming this far just doesn’t feel right. I’ve never lost this much weight, and I really didn’t think I was capable of this.
While I still have my cheat meals, I do have to say that this journey has been hard. It’s just a huge mind game. I feel like I’m getting better with my willpower, but that didn’t come easily. There were many days where I wanted to grab for a pint of ice cream or buy a certain snack that I missed, but I knew I wouldn’t be able to stop at one serving. There were times during C25K where I just wanted to quit, but I didn’t.
Here’s my progress pictures…before on the left…now on the right.
- My 2nd 5K is this weekend. I’m averaging a 15 minute mile, so I’m hoping I can do this 5K in 45 minutes.
- I fit in size 20 jeans now, which is the jeans size I wore before our wedding. 3 pants sizes down!
- All of my clothes from the skinny side of the closet fit. Most of my clothes from last year look frumpy.
- I’m currently 8 lbs. away from the weight I was for our wedding. (WOWZA!)
I’m so stoked to be able to go get my first pair of boots. These rewards really make reaching milestones that much more fun! It’s a huge enough reward to see myself getting smaller, but it’s just the icing on the cake to know that I get to treat myself to something fun that I wouldn’t normally spend my money on.