I’m sure a few of you had suspicions since I wasn’t sharing as much on here/Twitter/Instagram about weight loss. And well, at my current weight, things are a bit out of control.
Before: 298.5
This Week: 284.1
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Total Loss: 14.4 lbs.
Yup.
I have no excuses. None. I haven’t gone for a run in well over 7 months, and the gym? Heh…obviously not.
I have to look back on what went wrong. I stopped working out, I ate whatever I wanted in whatever portions I wanted, and most of all, I started to hate myself again.
I’ve always had self-image issues, and when I was losing weight, I was slowly becoming capable of being comfortable in my own skin.
Then, the weight gain started. My 16W jeans were tighter and tighter, and then I was like…well 18W isn’t bad. It’ll be temporary. Then, those got tight. I then purchased 20W jeans, and even those are a little snug right now. It’s just bad….for both me and my wallet (I donated most of my too big clothes because I swore I’d never be this size again…)
We have a cruise coming up in a couple of months, so I joined a Dietbet to sort of get things in control before I binge eat on the cruise ship. I also need to lose a bit of weight, so I don’t have to purchase a new swimsuit for this cruise. Yes, I’m larger than my largest swimsuit right now…
I guess the biggest take-away from this is that weight loss isn’t easy. Maintenance isn’t easy. It was so easy to go back to my old ways, and I miss my motivated self. I miss that sore post-gym feeling. I miss being in complete control of the foods I eat, no matter what I craved. I’m human, and well…I guess the only positive thing out of this is that I didn’t gain ALL of it back (almost did…) and that I’m back!
So, I’m here to hold myself accountable again. I’m going to start writing about my weight loss journey, and every Wednesday, you’ll get some sort of update from me. I’ll start posting my gym work-outs again (or video work-outs). I don’t want to say I’ll be back to 5x/week work-outs, but I will ease myself back into things. I’m also on MyFitnessPal (username niftyfoodie) to get back into calorie counting. 🙂
Aw Amy. It IS a good reminder that maintenance isn’t easy.
I believe in you though. You’ve done it before, you can do it again!
Thank you! I know I can do it again…this is the hard part (making this the new normal). 🙂
It IS hard. Remember to be kind to yourself, sweet friend. 🙂
Thanks, friend! 🙂 You’re the sweetest!
I am rooting for you! I am pregnant right now, and I’ve just completely lost control of myself. I’ve already gained about 40 pounds and I still have 13 weeks left to go. Every week I tell myself that I am going to eat right, but everyday I find myself eating brownies for a snack. Ugh.
Thanks so much! Congratulations on your pregnancy!
I understand what you are going through. Taking care of yourself and maintenance is never easy no matter what weight a person is at. It’s important to feel good about yourself and if you aren’t, how do you feel good? Get back to what feels good but is still healthy. I’m still trying to learn that and we can do it!
We definitely can do this! Thank you!
You can do it! I’m being honest with myself too! I have made up so many excuses for my weight and why I can’t exercise and eat healthy, it’s stopping today! You are my inspiration, Amy. You have always been such a beautiful person, inside and out! I’m cheering you on!
Thanks, Mallorie. 🙂 It’s so hard to just silence the excuses…I’ve been there! We can do this!
your candidness on your journey has always been inspiring. Thanks for sharing – best wishes as it continues! You are a huge inspiration! – you can do it!
Thanks so much! I can’t wait to get back into the swing of things!