This is a hard post to write. Really hard. Not to mention, embarrassing too.
A couple of weeks ago, I told myself that this was it. No looking back. I need to get healthy. I know I’ve said this multiple times, but now that I’m dangerously teetering towards 300 lbs., I feel that this needs to happen soon.
At my weight, life is different. Much much different.
- I get stared at. At first I thought that my zipper was down or something, but I realized people are probably staring at me. And people stare HARD. I’m not a looker, so I can only assume they’re looking at me because of my weight.
- I used to be able to walk briskly and talk at the same time. I can still do this, but I’m starting to notice that I feel winded when I try. Seriously…
- I wake up with back pain. I’ve never had this happen before. I’m 27…I shouldn’t be dealing with back pain every morning when I never had this problem before.
- I’m always tired. ALWAYS. I could take a nap at the drop of a hat. My energy is absolutely drained.
- My belly sticks out more than my boobs. And I’m not pregnant.
- Constant acid reflux. Again, this is something I’ve never had before, but now I experience it nearly every day. It sucks.
I know some of these are ridiculous, but to me, I feel like my health is at its worst. I’m only 27 years old. I can do this. I can change. I’m ready for everything on that list to change for the better.
I am rooting for you. It’s not necessarily about losing weight but being healthy (which results in shedding pounds)
I know counting calories helped me alot. When i was trying to loose the baby weight. Great apps available for iphones and droids. I also found that running was a hassle, but after 3 days of C25K I was looking forward to my run. Maybe that can help?
Trust me I know how hard it is to lose weight. But the outcome is worth it. If ever you feel like you are running off track, I’ll pep talk you right back in. 🙂 (if only my husband would understand and get crackin on loosing weight too. “
You are inspiring to me. After I have this baby, I AM doing it! I have said it before, but I need to for our children!
You can totally do this!!! It’s so hard to put yourself out there, but you have support!! Sending you weight loss vibes!!
I can totally relate to you. I just went to an OB appt on Monday to talk about some things and she point blank told me “You’re not able to get pregnant because you’re very overweight.” It wasn’t a shock. I know that I’m overweight, obese even, but it still sucks to hear. I want a baby, I want to be a Mommy, more than anything.
Yes, the back pain. Ridiculous. I’ve been to the chiropractor in the last year for more back aches, muscle tweaks and other ridiculous things, that I know is likely caused by my weight.
I can hardly walk, which makes exercise even worse. {can you see the problem there?} I have a killer, killer case of plantar fascitis. In the mornings, I have to tip toe across the room to get to my alarm because my feet are so tense and painful. Cooking/baking are becoming increasingly more unenjoyable because being on my feet for long periods of time renders me useless once I sit down. I go through the same alarm-clock-tip-toe routine once I go to get up again.
I always look at my stomach and tell my Husband “this would be so cute if it were a pregnant bump and not just a fat bump.”
It flat out sucks. It’s a long, long road to better health and because it’s such a long, long road, it makes the task that much more daunting.
Email me if you ever want to chat.
Hugs to you…
-Another Amy
I’m guilty of most of this. Although it’s the bursitis not the plantar fascitis. Stupid itises! Anyway, I just wanted you to know other people are feeling the same and going through similar trials. My stomach REALLY bothers me and I’ve said the EXACT same thing as your second to last point… hugs girl. ALWAYS here to chat if you want!