I’m sure a few of you had suspicions since I wasn’t sharing as much on here/Twitter/Instagram about weight loss. And well, at my current weight, things are a bit out of control.
This Week: 284.1
Total Loss: 14.4 lbs.
I have no excuses. None. I haven’t gone for a run in well over 7 months, and the gym? Heh…obviously not.
I have to look back on what went wrong. I stopped working out, I ate whatever I wanted in whatever portions I wanted, and most of all, I started to hate myself again.
I’ve always had self-image issues, and when I was losing weight, I was slowly becoming capable of being comfortable in my own skin.
Then, the weight gain started. My 16W jeans were tighter and tighter, and then I was like…well 18W isn’t bad. It’ll be temporary. Then, those got tight. I then purchased 20W jeans, and even those are a little snug right now. It’s just bad….for both me and my wallet (I donated most of my too big clothes because I swore I’d never be this size again…)
We have a cruise coming up in a couple of months, so I joined a Dietbet to sort of get things in control before I binge eat on the cruise ship. I also need to lose a bit of weight, so I don’t have to purchase a new swimsuit for this cruise. Yes, I’m larger than my largest swimsuit right now…
I guess the biggest take-away from this is that weight loss isn’t easy. Maintenance isn’t easy. It was so easy to go back to my old ways, and I miss my motivated self. I miss that sore post-gym feeling. I miss being in complete control of the foods I eat, no matter what I craved. I’m human, and well…I guess the only positive thing out of this is that I didn’t gain ALL of it back (almost did…) and that I’m back!
So, I’m here to hold myself accountable again. I’m going to start writing about my weight loss journey, and every Wednesday, you’ll get some sort of update from me. I’ll start posting my gym work-outs again (or video work-outs). I don’t want to say I’ll be back to 5x/week work-outs, but I will ease myself back into things. I’m also on MyFitnessPal (username niftyfoodie) to get back into calorie counting.